Oh Goodness.

What a few couple of weeks. Had my Wisconsin family come down for over a week and bring us pure joy with babies. Toodles and Brady are wonderful. So good for both kids being under 3. Lots of work things going on. Trying to make the store a success. Putting in so many hours, but everyone is so impressed with the changes, everyone says hey, we don't suck anymore. Well I hope not I know I've been busting my ass the past 3 months I've been here.

so Monday night, I was on espn making my choices for the fantasy football games. I kind of got a weird feeling, knowing it was Brandon, my ex, who made the account for me. He's the one who decided to kill himself in March by walking in front of a train up in Chicago. And yesterday, my cousin Amy who lives up in Barrington was looking for me to talk because a kid from her school had just done it. We both also lost our cousin, Faith, this January because of suicide. So I can definitely help someone find their feelings and emotions, since I have had to twice this year. So I was doing some meditation and little Amy text me again saying they think it happened again. http://www.chicagobreakingnews.com/2010/08/metra-train-stopped-after-man-lays-on-tracks.html thank god they think the person got spooked and is ok. i know i prayed super hard and asked even brandon and faith and all the angels i believe in to make everything ok. but hopefully the town can find good in this, and help out. i know it's such a rich suburb and i know how kids feel. trust me, i can relate and understand going through some heavy shit.

so i'm dealing with that. i seem to be doing my meditation at good times this week....it's not the first time i had texts come up late at night and take a lot out of me. i had a dear friend piss the fuck out of me. i was not a happy camper, but i meditated,did my gay yoga and found a good place to be. so we were able to chit chat today with no problems but we'll see. i'm still wary..........

and i'm being a big girl with school. found out i have to retake my pcat, they don't accept it if your score is over 5 years old. i did friggin great on the pcat! oh well i've had even more schooling and can do even better. and it's $150. fml and i am doing all of my transcripts for pharmacy school. i printed out all the forms....i've gone to 4 colleges! omg i'm insane. hopefully this is the last time though. i'll get money orders tomorrow and start this shit so i can start my life and be 30 and stressfree. haha yeah right. i'm funny.


Source: http://ambivader.blogspot.com/2010/08/oh-goodness.html