this could be bad

i went to the ear doctor today for the first time in what has apparently been, way too long. (i've been having dizzy spells). i knew it was going to be bad due to an history of bad after bad after bad.

i don't know what's wrong with me at all so i can't tell you or reassure you of anything, but the doctors were very straightforward with me about how i was an urgent case and i needed to get an mri done on my brain immediately. without the mri, they were blind. yeah, that's right on my brain. [enter "freak out" stage one: trying not to look freaked out]...they even took the time to define for me that i was not yet an emergency but that i was something along the lines of an urgency. [stage two: maintain hysterics, no quavering]

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webster's take on urgent: calling for immediate attention
wikipedia's take on emergencies: Most emergencies require urgent intervention to prevent a worsening of the situation
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when i was leaving the office they told me i was not to exercise, to which i responded that was my career and then they added "for at least a few days." [stage three: tears]

after i returned home, i received a call from the office to reiterate that if my headache increased or i started vomiting, i was to go immediately to the ER. And, as soon as i had my mri, i was to send it over to them.

[stage four: forget tears, open floodgates prepare for melt down]

i managed to set the appointment for the mri.

thurs at 2:15

[stage five: melt down]

so yeah,

not the greatest day of my life.

:( m

Source: http://evermovingmartha.blogspot.com/2010/08/this-could-be-bad.html